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Friday, October 17, 2008

It's amazing how at times we see ourselves looking back at the past, lingering on all the million memories which, amazingly, still perfectly fit in our hearts. It's like watching an old re-run of you life's tv series. The only difference is that you aren't exactly the same. Some of the faces on the screen, you still recognize. You remember them vividly now that you've found the time to look back. Friends, Best Friends, former lovers, former enemies -- The role they played once in your life seemed to be just another fragment of your recall now.

It didn't matter how much they've hurt you, or how much they've made you go crazy. When it comes down to it you only see the special moments that define their special place in your memory. And some of these people are still around, the ones whom you tightly held on to for they never let go. but then, as you held on to some, you also lost a few.

Few people who once became huge parts of your world, they took away too much part of you, ripping your heart, taking away that vital organ which keeps you going. Too much of a part that you had to let them slip away just to have enough left for yourself. People who you have to let go of in order for you to not lose everyone else, not lose yourself.

But then, you realize that it wasn't only your fault. Because as it takes two people to hold onto a binding string, it also takes two to cut it. They let you go too. The reason, you may never really get to know.

Now, they're gone. You feel that empty space in you. That utter loss. The scar that once opened up a part of yourself to them would always remain engraved on your skin no matter how hard you try to ignore it. The promises, the laughter, all the share of pain, you all wish them back. And sometimes, I wake up on days like these, just missing those times, missing that person. Wondering if it's even possible to have even just one second of refrainment. Missing them is harder, especially when you know that they might never come back. All you have is that once piece of memory. You memorize the picture in your mind. Hoping that it would be enough.

Regrets. Friendship. Love.
Cherish them once you've found them. For one day, you would look back on these things.
Even if you attempt to start over again, it would never be the same.

Who Knew? - Pink

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened?

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew?
My darling
My darling
Who knew?
My darling
I miss you.
My darling
Who knew?
Who knew

It's too late for everything♥
6:21 AM

I am random today, and so I will blog gibberish and awry thoughts! hahah. This is my new topic: How to get writer's block. I HAVE WRITER'S BLOOOOCK! seriously. I can't think of anything sensible to write when I stare at the computer screen. And I feel like a total loser right now. SO, to help me get over this loser-ness(is there such a word?) I WOULD HELP YOU GUYS TO HAVE WRITER'S BLOCK TOO! yeay! Isn't that great? Then we'll ALL have writer's block and everyone would blog about random things! YEEEAY!

How to Get Writer’s Block

1. Sit at your computer, but don’t open Word. Just sit and stare at the blank screen.

2. Reread your least favorite parts of Twilight. (teeheee)

3. Don’t listen to any music.

4. Better yet, only listen to Europop, techno, and rap.

5. If you hear anything other than those types of music, crush the offensive noise into oblivion.

6. If it happens to be your iPod, go ahead.

7. If you’re over 21, drink. All day and all night.

8. If you’re under 21, drink. All day and all night.

9. If you feel sober, drink some more.

10. Go shopping and look at things you can’t afford. When you leave, think, “Alice would have bought that.”

11. Watch Japanese Anime (not redubbed) that you can’t understand. ( I did this. Honestly. I got an effing headache.)

12. Wake up an hour earlier than you need to.

13. Constantly remind people what a loser you are. (I just did.)

14. Wear black every day, but say that you AREN’T goth. (emooo! boo!)

15. Join sports you have no idea how to play. (err.. like korfball?)

16. If you’re writing a specific story, don’t read any similar ones.

17. Instead, read Are you afraid of the dark?, and dream of writing your own.

18. Burn copies of New Moon.

19. Never exercise. (:DDD)

20. Be like Jawe, the mcdo dude, and eat as much burgers you can eat.

21. Read travel magazines for places you never want to visit. (like Iraq..)

22. Buy a large expensive thing, and purposely put it in a place most likely to get broken.

23. When it breaks, complain about how miserable your life is.

24. Buy a new, large expensive thing, and put in the same place.

25. Read depressing poems.

26. Watch the news attentively when they talk about homicide cases.

27. Devote your life to reading your science textbook cover to cover. ( jawe?)

28. When you finish, reread it.

29. Repeat step 28 for at least five years.

30. Constantly insert newly learned scientific information into your fic.

31. Whenever you think of a new plotline, idea, or scene, dismiss it as unimportant and forget about it.

32. Later, complain about the fact that you forgot it, and drown your sorrows in angsty profile posts.

33. Constantly check your email for new reviews.

34. This works especially well if you haven’t posted any stories.

35. Drag out your old work and critique it harshly.

36. Post it with various disclaimers that it sucks.

37. Hold chapters hostage.

38. When in doubt, say no. No matter what the issue is. Just say it.

39. Never ask anyone for help.

40. Ever.

41. If someone asks if you want help, yell, “Why can’t you people just leave me alone?!” and run away.

42. This works especially well if it’s in a crowded store.

43. Spam mail Congress.

44. Talk about global warming. (it helps.)

45. Constantly.

46. Inform SUV owners that they are destroying the world.

47. Attempt to write a fic that breaks all the rules of good fanfiction.

48. Post it.

49. Convince yourself that it’s the best fic EVER written, and react accordingly when someone flames you.

50. Finally, drink coffee. With crack mixed in.

:)
last but not the least.

51. Blog about how you got your writer's block and convince other people so that you aren't the only miserable being left in the face of the planet. :)

THIS IS THE WORK OF MY CREATIVE WRITER'S BLOCK, DON'T STEAL. thanks. :)

It's too late for everything♥
6:19 AM