Tuesday, December 4, 2007
It's almost 12 midnight on a school night.and I am effing bored and tired and lazy and ..well.. emo.My day had been typical. Jawe and Yu during breaks, shabotrra on singing practices, anthony's craziness, ms. tobias' anecdotes, ...*sigh*Anyway, so you probably wonder what triggers my emo mode this time.. Basically, it's all because of two certain songs that has kept me up for two consecutive night already. shessh.."Tear drops on my guitar"-Taylor Swifttotal emo song. I swear. The lyrics struck me dead. Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see. That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be. I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about And she's got everything that I have to live without. Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny That I can't even see anyone when he's with me. He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star. He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do.
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?And there he goes, so perfectly,The kind of flawless I wish I could beShe'd better hold him tight, give him all her loveLook in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light. I'll put his picture down and maybe Get some sleep tonight. He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar. The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart. He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do. He's the time taken up, but there's never enough. And he's all that I need to fall into..
Totally ouch.
I don't know why but the song just reminds me so much of something that I tried so hard to forget. I know, I know. I am a dork. And it sucks to know that while you are busy telling yourself that you are finally alright, there he goes again, reminding you that he's got your heart. ahhh...
I don't want to feel this way!
Why does it have to take so long? Why does it still hurt?
I want to be numb, so that I can finally move on completely. without ever having to look back.
Too bad. Drew is such a lucky person whoever he is. And he doesn't even know it.
"Your Call"- Second hand serenade
A very touching song. Shasta told me about the video and I just love it to bits! So sad. The song really reflects my mood. I love the serenity of the song.
"I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to.
To make you mine, stay with me a while.
I am tired of being all alone
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home.."
LSS.
I am such a sucker for emo songs.
ahhh!!!
I still have to finish that english reflective essay!!!
and yeah,
I have to finally congratulate myself for being able to avoid him for so long already. He PMed me in YM a couple of times but I managed not to reply.
Sorry, It's my defence mechanism. Sort of like a solution to my unyielding feelings, to restrain it rather than make it vanish.
And I do like it better this way. Because now, it's only ME. I, no more, belong to a tangle of love complications that will only leave me broken in the end.
ME.MYSELF.I
"We always look for something that has always been there under our nose."
It's too late for everything♥
7:48 AM
