Wednesday, November 21, 2007
"Out of reach, so far. I never had your heart. Out of reach, couldn't see. We were never meant to be... THERE'S A LIFE OUT THERE FOR ME..^__^"Nice.. Everything is starting to blow up on my face once again. And I haven't got any idea on how to deal with things right now. I'm tired and drained from doing projects and dull paper works.I have tons of exams to review for, and even another dozen of reports and projects to finish. Our house is still the same HELL as it ahs always been, only it has become worse. Life can't get any better than this.
Yep, Just another "normal" week for me. I'd commit suicide right now, even GLADLY. Ha! Sarcasm is such a wonderful word. Yet, although I have felt these same rode lamenting feelings countless times before, I just can't get myself to let go that easy. The world may seem to close out on me, and the pain ma seem unbearable, and yet here I am, trying my best to be immune to all these.
Why am I so damn stubborn?!! when I know that I can just easily put all these things to halt by aiming a gun straight to my already shattered mind. What's with life that I find it so hard to let go?
HOPE. maybe.
Yet, as i think about it, another question pops out from wood work.
HOW LONG WILL I HOPE FOR SOMETHING THAT'S BEGINNING TO BECOME POINTLESS EVEN TO MY OWN SIGHT?
Nope. Don't think that I'm only beeing attacked by the sudden "Love sickness" because of HIM. NO, this time, you're wrong because I'M FINALLY OVER HIM. Why would I stick to something that will never do me any good anyway? Finally, after long years of slumber, I had woken up. I'm starting fresh despite all the constant doubts.
I'm brave. I have to make myself believe that.
I am brave even if you won't believe me, cause this time, I only have myself to depend on.
Funny, I only got to realize that now that everything's over. Here I am, facing this new obstacle. Because I am not the only one who has burdens, and I'm not alone.
"You're free to push me out the window, I'll just get back up."
No, you just can't let me down, like the way you used to.
It's too late for everything♥
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